Saturday, December 08, 2007
martyr am i a martyr of Christ? am i realli who i claim to be? after reading JEsus Freaks, i seem to be someone who just know God but i don noe him. i start to doubt if i will stand firm when trouble come or will i choose the easy way out. if it is a life and death question will i still stand firm? reading Jesus Freaks let me thinks about all this. i don wan to be someone who talk a load full of crap and does nothing in the end. what is real faith? what is strong faith? what is a close relationship with God. i don realli seem to know God after all. maybe i should start from starting line again. it dosen't matter where i am now. i nid a strong foundation just like my maths. because i do not have a strong foundation is maths that is why it is so lousy right now and i don want the same thing to happen in my life with God. what should i do?
mission trip is ment to be something that will change my life.it is something that will build my relationship with others but instead, my relationship with some of the people i know became worse. i was wondering what went wrong and i came down with this conclusion. that is my attitude. attitude is veri important. what attitude u have is how u will answer people. i guess my attitude really suxs. sometimes i get irritated by ppl who just come up to sae that i am emoing when i am just sitting alone thinking about something. but come to think of it, am i not emoing? its realli weird to not know what u r doing sometimes. for example what i write now dosen't make sense to myself. i jsut keep on typing asnd typing and typing hoping that it will nvr end... but it will end soon rite? like probably..Now.
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