琪钧's

2010-04-05T16:56:00.000+08:00

im dreading orientation. 1 more week.

2010-02-07T21:00:00.004+08:00

This was taken during acts 3 xmas bash '09 o:

As I stepped into a new year, (and revive a forgotten blog) I was shocked by how fast time flies. Now its already Feb and my hair colour isn't even black anymore.. Oh! We celebrated Dearest Neo Kah Ling's Birthday at Chevrons just before 2009 ended! Anyway, I started my year off with a movie marathon at shanyao's house with a group of people. We played truth and dare and Ernest and Luke kissed each other's 'mouse'.. man that was hilarious.. The next Big thing was the O'lvls result. And after much drama, I got myself into Sp Interior Design. Something I had never thought about. I didn't go for any open house nor did I stepped into the school before. Ok, maybe only once but that was like 3 years ago?! Then I went back to work at incallsys. The current group was so much better, but I still miss the 3 jokers though.. I would have missed them more if they take away all that "£$%^&* and stuff.. (: Some people left incall after their contract has ended, but we still met up at dinner and both times were awesome! There was a change in church and cellgroup became history. Live group is now on every Friday Night! This means that church will only start at 4 every Saturday and there will be empty buses and no traffic jams :D

Toured SP with CS on Thursday. Actually Sp is pretty cool, Im starting to love the school. Oh wells. 2 more months to a start of new life but only 1 more week to CNY! AngPowsAngPows, come to mama!! >:D

2009-11-25T22:48:00.004+08:00

You don't know me that well after all.

I miss school already!!!!! The idea of looking for a job is worse than studying for a test ): There's a hiking trip on Friday again, better be careful this time now. Don't wish to drink another mouthful of langao water.

Estee and the rest of the mission trippers will be leaving on Sunday morning! Awww, I'm gonna miss her..

Happy Belated to Estee Cheng and Pamela Chin <3

✿☠✿

2009-11-10T19:41:00.003+08:00

Prom tomorrow. ENJOY!

2009-11-08T17:06:00.002+08:00

The year is ending, another time to look forward to events such as Christmas and Chalets. Another time for camps and outings. But above all these, have I fulfilled the goals I've set around this time last year? Well, most of them but not everything, that's not good enough. Will next year be the same? I wonder..

2009-04-22T22:32:00.003+08:00

miss you know who.
i shall put aside a few minuets of my time telling you this.

Firstly, Your good friend asked me the question why we(like almost the whole class) so don't like you. And i just told her the two main factors; we feel that you 1.act chio (if you even know what it means) and 2.even if you don't try to act chio, you should try to interact with the class. you even scold the class "bastards and bitches" and you feel that we have outcast you when you choose to sit there and keep your mouth shut.

you claim that i gossip about you? then haven't you gossip about me before? i think you've gossip about all the "bastards and bitches" before.. no one knows. seriously. your good friend said that maybe this can help you change. fat hope. with this kind of attitude, i guess you will regard everyone, especially me as "bastards and bitches" yeah.

seriously. you've no right to judge. I'm not perfect but neither are you. before you ask me to reflect, you can try doing it yourself. oh and you don't know what it means by doodling? Lastly, I AM SO JEALOUS! I LOVE YOUR HAIR MAN! maybe i can try cutting my hair by myself and go extend it like yours (: aww, thank you for calling me "pretty".. i will appreciate it.

LMAO.

hey passersby,
GET A LIFE. HAVE THE GUTS TO JUDGE ME; DON'T HAVE THE GUTS TO CONFRONT ME.
sheesh.

2009-03-19T23:33:00.000+08:00

get out of my sight.

2009-03-10T22:28:00.001+08:00

we all fall sometimes
we all let ourselves down
sometimes there's nothing left
but to live with what's been done
and know you're not the only one who falls

we all fail sometimes
we all let someone down
sometimes there's nothing left
but to promise to ourselves
that next time we won't be the one to fail

i want to tell you you can go on
that beginnings come from ends
i still believe in you and so does God
He's the one who still believes in those who fail
He's the one who still believes in us who fall

I tried.

2009-02-28T23:13:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday, Wu Lywei.

i still can't get anything of amaths and chemistry into my head.
and i have no time to complete everything on Sunday. Why do i feel so packed up?
changed to weihao's group today. i gotta admit i felt better then the previous group.
then again, sister wanping preached something today hit me hard.
whats done cannot be undone anyway.
maybe things will change again in the future.

dinner at rooftop.
then suddenly AO come and talk about LO.
"when was it that you've become like this..."
all we can do now is to pray.
lets hope things will turn out better after this week.

memories. do you treasure them as well?

i feel like i'm going to break down soon.

2009-02-25T19:07:00.003+08:00

Courage by SuperChick.

Had a random bbq on monday with my cousins.
english, SS, MT, history are over..
amaths,emaths,sciences and poa will probably be over soon.
for some reason, i'm really looking forward to O'levels.lol.
probably after then manymany things would have changed /:

and i'm ending my once again very short post with this:
School gets boring all of a sudden and there are fakes here and there and sometimes you just get pretty sick of them. bleah. ):

raked up the past, let go of the future.
do what you should do, PQJ.

2009-02-20T23:08:00.003+08:00

Friday Night, baby are you sleeping?

Another week gone, time really flies like an arrow.
Happy Birthday to Hafiz.
I'm returning your favorite line to you " I don't care" too.

Valentine's Day with the xiaoguas on Saturday.
Planetshakers came to cosbt on Sunday.
Awesome.

common test is starting next week and i am sitting here, trying to post something.
just being dumb..

life is probably not what you think it is. life is probably more than that. but so many times we see it that there is only now. not sure what I'm trying to say. not sure what I'm trying to express. but it just feels weird thinking of them and that. hope that no more will go away. and you can hear me whisper while my heart aches. i said it once, i said it twice. i may say it a hundred times. I'm feeling blue, can't deny that it is true. just want to stop this heart ache. can you hear the glass break? and i will slowly whisper.. "come back.."

2009-02-08T23:52:00.002+08:00

writing an unfinished song.
and i'm not sure who is it for.

IT IS MONDAY ALREADY! O:

updates updates.hmm.
was late for CIP on Saturday morning but didn't missed the arrival of the guest of honour..and his fellow members? LOL.
didn't went church on that day.. instead, went to somewhere at Defu Lane and had a wonderful,scrumptious,yummy,dinner.(its just taste so good, you know what i mean ;) )

Missed Doris Birthday party(?) on Sunday and was bored to death the whole day. I'm sorry Doris, geez.

Not a bad weekend, compared to the past few(s).
shall update soon.(:

2009-02-04T17:54:00.001+08:00

There was this room.
In this room, there was a shelf.
The shelf was filled with lots and lots of files.
Every file had a heading.
There were many many different headings.
Inside every file, there were cards.
The first file that caught my eye was "Boys that I have liked".
I open it and I realised that I recgonise every single name inside that book.
I quickly shut it and placed it back on the shelf.
Then I realise what is the room all about.It was a catalog system of my life.
Every single detail was written in the book.
Be it big or small.
It was all written.
I began to randomly pick files and explore its contents.
Some of it brought joy yet some brought shame and regret that I did not want anyone to see it.
The headings ranged from mundane to outright weird"Books I have read""Lies I have told""Comfort I have given""Jokes I laughed at"

Some headings that i was ashamed of"Things I have done in anger""Things I have muttered under my breath at my parents"and the headings go on and on.
some of the files i wish had more cards..while others i wished it had fewer.
There was a file that wrote "lustful thoughts"i looked at the cards and shuddered at its detailed contents andi felt sick that these moments were recorded.
Every single card was signed by myself.
Every card was recorded by y own hand writing.
It was my deeds.

Then a thought dominated my mind.
No one must ever see these cards!
No one must ever find this room!
I must destroy the contents.
I became desperate trying to pull out the cards.to tear out its contents only to realised,it was no use.

I was defeated and utterly helpless.
Then I saw the file "People I have shared the gospel with"
It looked so new, almost unused.
I could count the cards so easily that
it seems as if it was the thinnest file on the shelf.

I began to weep.
I cried out of shame, out of pain, out of regret.
I wanted to lock up the room and throw the key away.

As I wiped away my tears, I saw Him.
No, please. not Him. not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus.
I watched helplessly as He opened every file and read the cards.I couldn't bear to see His response.
I saw the sorrow deeper than my own on His face.
He read every single card that could be found.

Finally, He turned and looked at me from across the room.
I covered my face and began to cry again.
He walked over and placed His arm around me.
He could have said so many things.
But He did not say a word.
He just cried with me.

Then He got up and walked back to the shelf.
Starting from one end of the room.
He took out a file.
One by one, He began to sign His name over mine on every single card.

No! I shouted to Him.
His name shouldn't be on these cards.
These were the shameful deeds that I have done.
Yet His name was so rich, so dark, so alive on every card.
The name of Jesus covered mine.
It was written with His blood.
He closed the last file and placed His hand over my shoulder.
"It is finish" and He led me out of the room.
There was no lock to this room.
There were still cards to be written.

The truth is thatGod chose to die on the cross for you and I.
He could have easily said"no, i'm not gonna do it. let them perish on their own".but He did not.
OUT OF LOVE.HE SPREAD HIS ARMS ON THE CROSS.
OUT OF LOVE.HE CHOSE TO DIE FOR US.
OUT OF LOVE.HE GAVE HIS LIFE.SO THAT WE WILL RECONCILE WITH HIM.
OUT OF LOVE.HE PAID THE RANSOM.
OUT OF LOVE.HE IS ASKING US.
WILL YOU ACCEPT ME INTO YOUR LIFE?

The question is yours to answer today.
Will you accept Him as Your personal Lord and Saviour?or will you reject Him and the love He has given.

i guess i got to ask myself again.

2009-02-04T17:28:00.003+08:00

On a mission to find myself.

Things aren't going well. I feel like I'm getting all the blame from what others had said and done.
Am i over-reacting or have they really gone too far?

i guess theres a mixture of both, but i don't think that i can take it anymore.

2009-02-03T22:17:00.003+08:00

To you my friend,
It's been a long time since i last talk to you. You didn't reply me, probably cause i kept asking you. You came back but went away once more. You thought everything is going to be all right soon but you realized that accountability isn't your thing. You went away again. Went with others and left us just like that. Friendship is not something that can be build in a day. It takes months maybe even years to build a strong one. I've got too many friends just like you. Please don't be like them too. Just want to say we miss you. To you my friend, i hope you do too.

you probably won't read this. but this is my message to you. i want to say thank you too. Thank you for your listening ear when I'm having a bad time. Thank you for entertaining me when I am bored to death. Thank you for talking to me on the phone even though you sound like you are falling asleep. Thank you for your goodnight messages. Most importantly, Thank you for standing by me. Thank you my friend, just hope that you will come back soon (:

rants,rants,rants..
My brain cells are probably dying now. There are so many stuff going in school that are eating almost all my brain cells. The leftover ones are making me do weird things like watching the wrong channels.The BOYS in my class are being so immature these days..and you think being a sec 4 they should be more mature you are wrong! they are of no difference from those BOYS in sec 1 and 2. my bag is getting heavier and heavier everyday and there seems to be more homework to pass up within a shorter due date.lessons seems to be such a drag these days. teachers are more long-winded too. Oh Lord, save my poor soul!

* i think i needa get salonpass soon.LOL.

2009-01-09T23:26:00.002+08:00

its been a month! (:

2008's over and 2009 is here!

first few days of school was better then i had expected.

homework just pile themselves up without me knowing.

I'm already half asleep as i'm typing this post. LOL.

The three days poly "tour" worned me out. Alot.

speaking of which, i never played facebook for three days cause of this ):

hope my crops didn't die on me. hehes.

Lets enjoy school everyone! :D

2008-10-27T01:40:00.003+08:00

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prayer meeting tomorrow at 9.45am then steamboat at Peggy's house.
shall update tomorrow =)
nights to the lazy me!

._. * what a lame post.

2008-10-24T23:34:00.003+08:00

We went Daiso. We were crazy. We had fun. Pictures shall speak (:

you can never guess...

actually today we went to daiso again ._. but i shall post the pictures tomorrow :)
i seemed to be going to daiso everyday..
weird.

anyway there's church tomorrow, soooooo

NIGHTS! :D

2008-10-22T22:21:00.004+08:00

ROAR!
not in a very good mood.. but still, i shall only ROAR and not say other things.

went to Debbie house with Peggy and chow chin today.
man, i want her house...so nice ._.
watched scooby doo and ate fried rice.
after that went to find jia yu and you yang.

Sorry if we interrupt you guys :D

getting my report book tomorrow and school is starting next Tuesday.
tell me this isn't real =(

2008-10-20T23:43:00.003+08:00

chillis & peppers, good evening, dear earthlings :D

i am happy to say that i am promoted to sec 4! and it is 100% by God's grace! three cheers for him!!!

went to fix my phone today.. now i am phone-less cause both of my phone were send for repairs..
thank God its still within the warranty period, if not i got to pay $..

went to sell some "prevent radiation for phone" kind of thingy with miss Yap Jia Qi today.. walked around 3 or 4 blocks? and we sold...

NOTHING! hahas!

so walked around and sweat alot and earned nothing ._.
but it was good exercise though. bahas.

West Spring Sports Day tomorrow at Choa Chu Kang Stadium.. and i am running 800m..
why why why why why...
why did i open my BIG and GOLDEN mouth in the first place..
why can't i just walk away when they ask me to run..
why why why why why...

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me and my whysssss

anyone wanna go peggy house after that sms me at 97586690.its okay if you are not from west spring.but if you don't know her, forget about it =)

2008-10-18T23:09:00.004+08:00

greetings from mars!

this is gemuk porky reporting. On the 17 of October 2008, West Coast Park was attacked by some aliens from Mars! Marsliens namely DEBBIE, PEGGY,JIAQI,QIJUN,VIVIAN & CHOWCHIN attacked the play area in West Coast Park. Passers-by was attacked using the main weapon, SUPER LOUD SCREAMINGssssss ._.

enough of the crap.BAHAS

anyway we really did went to West Coast Park. and we really did play like 3 years old and we really did scream like babies :) but it was night and none of us care! It was fun. we ended the outing with a nice "nap" by the sea. its was totally FUN :) too bad you aren't there! (Whoever that is reading this now and you are not there.lols.)

Today Today!! half of Acts 3 went to NP while the other half went west coast.
It was a total blast! we played Captain's Ball.
we didn't use the ordinary method which is of course to use a ball for the ball.(if you can get what i mean) we used PAPAYA, CARROTS, BANANA, NAKED BANANA, BROCCOLI, GREEN PEPPER and lastly, a ball.

The papaya was all mashed up by the fifth throw. all the flesh and the seeds came out and all it had left was the skin. Man, that was good.

Carrots were the best. they don't get sticky and disgusting. they just breaks :D

BANANA was something like the papaya and it was bad enough but SVV want us to play with a NAKED BANANA too.. you can imagine how slimey and disgusting that is. *EWWW

BROCCOLI and GREEN PEPPER STINKS!! but atleast BROCCOLI don't get all mashed up with the juice and the seed coming out when it hits the ground.

The verdict: Captain's Ball has a word ball in it for a reason.

It was really fun anyway and one of my team won! i played so many times with different teams that i don't even know which team i am in anymore.
It started to rain really heavy when we were heading back to church but the amazing thing was that once we alight at the church bus stop, the rain stopped! Obviously there was no shelter if not we wouldn't care if it was raining or not. Cool right~ :D

2008-10-16T23:48:00.002+08:00

i'm finally posting again.

school will start again from 27 Oct to 28 Nov..
can you say WHAT THE?

guess i deserve it.
these few days were BAD.
Guess its just the consequences i've got to face.

Promotion day on Monday and i'm getting the moo-mooings~~

I know this is kindaof late but....

There will be a captain ball "competition" at NP on 18/10.. will be meeting at Bukit Panjang Plaza at 1pm.please contact me if you are interested :D

EOY

2008-09-27T00:09:00.002+08:00

2 down 7 more to go.
up next: History & PoA
i am so gonna flunk poa.
EL & CL paper were still okay
almost fell aslp during EL paper 2 :|

saturday is here agn. heard that cheryldin and fanghong will be coming
cant wait :)

2008-09-16T22:02:00.003+08:00

my life tells a story, the story tells my life.

went to MOF with
chowchin
ernest
estee
jiaqi
debbie
shanyao
cynthia
jovin
last Sunday.. 2nd time in a week o.O
thats why now i no more $$ >.<

EOY coming soon.. 9 more days
i will be free in 23 days! :)
time is running out and homework is piling up!
shall update nxt time!

2008-09-13T23:08:00.000+08:00

2008-09-07T22:18:00.002+08:00

A week of holiday :)
lets reflect abit...

Monday
succeed and complete my f :)

Tuesday
school then Service 2 prayer meeting then dinner with them then tution with ky
busy busy day

Wednesday
school then went to make my IC with JQ then ACTS 3 BBQ! :) 5 thumbs up! (even though i only have 2..)

Thursday
i faced the walls and the walls faced me.LOL

Friday
Tution and walls again

Saturday
T.M and church

Sunday
"studied" with ccc,e^2 and j

and thats all? for an entire week?
God, my life is so boring..
i think i need to think of a better holiday plan for my next holiday..
but till then, off to those last minute stuff now :)

Alternative way of blogging;)

2008-09-01T20:09:00.003+08:00

2008-08-25T22:33:00.002+08:00

the other side
the other side
the other side of me :)

2008-08-24T12:36:00.003+08:00

u came in
u gave comments to all the presents that i've got
u made comments about me related to the presents
u make me piss off at 9am
finally after u finish commenting
u said i will give you when you are 21
then u walked out of the room

FUBBLE NUGGETS!
21? you can save that for yourself.
i don;t nid the shit stuff that you said
i don;t nid your shit comments.
i just nid a happy birthday.

2008-08-23T23:59:00.001+08:00

♫ Happy Birthday to Yuling & ME♫ :D

many many many thank youss to~
Melody
Joey
Joanna
Yuling
Lywei
Cheong Seng
Ah Mel
Rui fen
Ben Loke
Hafiz
Amirul
Chow Chin
Amanda
Kah Ling
Melissa
Wei Hao
Sis Nana
Sis Vivian
Alicia
Jia Qi
and the whole of ACTS 3
just to name a fewsss..
sorry to those
who i can't rmb their name :x

thank youss for all the gifts presents!

first i needa thank Mr Chen Chow Chin.. i know you went to buy IT yourself and people probably thinks that you are gay cause you are buying something not for your gender but you still brought it. yeah thank you and i will try to wear it nxt sat to show you my thank you-ness.. so dun keep asking me to wear it :) thank you anyway!

next i have to say sorry to Mr Chua Wei Hao for not letting you eat your tiny weeny slice of cake in peace:) sorry that you have to walk around a few tables a few times just to clean off the cream on your face:) sorry sorry sorry:) i promise that next time i will TRY not to push the cake into your face next time you try to eat a slice of cake:) i really promise that i will TRY!!

church is good, friends are awesome, life is great.. what more can i ask? ;D

2008-08-22T23:22:00.003+08:00

a change of songs..
these are the songs used by ACDC & M&M Cru for their YouTube dance Battle.

School went really well today:)
except for msS's lesson.
MsS gave us 5 minutes break before the start of the lesson.
When 5 minutes is up, she suddenly blow her top for who knows what reason.
after another 5 minutes of talking and lecturing, msS wanted to go through a "homework"
when she said:
"those who didn't do GET OUT NOW.. i don't want to see your face!"
and with that, three quarter of the class went to sit outside the classroom..
She was shock by the number and some students are the ones that are unexpected.
due to the OVERWHELMING responds from the students, she had no choice but to send them back to class. OUT is not a solution now. thus, she decided to give us thirty minutes to do our "homework". The homework she gave us on the day before before is only a page and she decided to increase the homework while giving us thirty minutes and without telling us. So all of us just do the first page. thirty minutes later, she mysteriously appeared asking us how much have we done. when we pointed out that nice number one, she claimed that we are suppose to finish the whole 4 pages.. due to the incomplete work, the WHOLE class have to stay back after class to complete everything. She is a nice teacher you know.. she treated us to mcdonalds in term 1 ! (:

29 August 2008
The big day! The most important day in West Spring (yeah right..) its BYSD! theme: sports
all because of the Beijing Olympics we got to wear sports attire to school. You can even wear your trunks with a inflatable shark if you want :) R.R on that day and the sec 3s are competing with not only themselves, but with the sec 4s too.. i think i'm going to be the black sheep in the team..Major H coming soon..

* i lamed myself today (:

2008-08-20T22:05:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday Jowel Ho!!! :)

School's been great! except for my grades..
five more weeks to EOY..
means cannot fool around anymore :o

was reading typicalben's blog when i
came across a chopsticks dish..
chopsticks??!!! yeah chopsticks..
gross isn't it? maybe i should try cooking it and serve it to those people that i detest like A,B,C..
wouldn't it be nice if they eat it without knowing it is chopsticks instead of some veggie or chicken or whatever it looks like? :)*

2008-08-16T01:01:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to SIEW SIA & SIEW YU(:

2008-08-12T21:20:00.003+08:00

Link is not update.
will update when i have the time.

Physics test tomorrow!
I actually STUDIED for it. wow.
Amaths was a killer, so was Maths.
Guess i shall prepare for the worst :|

GB GB GB :o

2008-08-11T20:09:00.002+08:00

Life is Good ;)

2008-06-30T20:36:00.002+08:00

Burning hot jobromance!
♥♥♥♥♥

check it out!

2008-06-24T18:50:00.006+08:00

control, takeover, emotions, confuse, pain, numb, crimson, tears.

eight words. eight meanings. eight discription. one situation.

no one will ever understand.

2008-06-23T19:33:00.003+08:00

rainbows..

seems so easy to reach but they are actually out of this world..

when will this road end?

i wonder..

first day of school, loads of fun :)

the all powerful and the "great" mr seed..ahem, i mean seet wasted our one hour for his opening speech. wow D:

but i must admit, his speech on his trip to Japan was a great one :) especially the soccer part ♥..

chinese was a breeze.. finish my paper for one hour and slacked for the whole of next. ruifen brought sunflower seeds to school (don't know where she get it from..) and we all started nibbling away at the back .bahas.

miss goh gave me my four holiday assignments today just because i was absent on the last day of school..got to hand them in by wednesday haishh..

i think i'm going to see panda eyes again! O.O

2008-06-16T23:15:00.001+08:00

EMOTION-LESS
CONFUSED AND AT THE VERGE OF DEATH.
PLEASE DO NOT DISTURB.

2008-06-11T22:43:00.006+08:00

Sky of Love :D

The cell-phone novel that moved 11 million to tears
Uploaded to a cell-phone website, this tale of an average girl’s three stormy years of high school, a saga of love, rape, pregnancy, miscarriage, parting, and reunion, is in fact a true story. Striking a chord with many women, its popularity spread like wildfire by word of mouth, and published in book form was an instant best-seller, with 1.3 million copies snapped up in only three weeks. The work is a true phenomenon of the emerging cell-phone society.

7 thumbs up :)

watch it here:
http://www.crunchyroll.com/group/CRSeries_-_Sky_of_Love_-_Movie_-_Japan
(its licensed now :x)

ps: don't watch it if you are not mature enough *winks*

Strawberry Panic :D

Aoi Nagisa is a first year high school student who has been sent to the Astraea Dormitory after her parents are transfered abroad. The dormitory houses girls from three different girls schools: St. Spica's Academy, St. Le Rim Girl's School and St. Miatre Girls Academy. There she meets the representative of the three girls schools, Hanazano Shizuma, also know as the Etoile, she is beloved by all the students at all the schools. The two of them have an interesting first encounter and Hanazano seems to take a instant liking for Aoi.

Watch it here : http://www.crunchyroll.com/group/CRSeries_-_Strawberry_Panic

7 thumbs up :D

ps: don't watch it if you are not into lesbian stuff :3
Vampire Knight :D

Yuki's earliest memory is of a stormy night in winter, wherein she was attacked by a vampire... And then rescued by another. Now 10 years later, Yuki Cross, the adapted daughter of the headmaster of Cross Academy, has grown up and become a guardian of the vampire race, protecting her savior, Kaname, from discovery as he leads a group of vampires at the elite boarding school. But also at her side is Zero Kiryu, a childhood friend who’s hatred for the creatures that destroyed everything he held dear, is now determined never to trust them. This coexisting arrangement seems all well and good, but have the vampires truly renounced their murderous ways, or is there a darker truth behind their actions. Is Kaname's infatuation with Yuki the beginning of a forbidden romance, or is it something in her forgotten past that draws him to her. Because in this world of secrets, nothing is as it seems. And the price of misplaced trust may even be worse than death. Cross Academy is attended by two groups of students: the Day Class and the Night Class. At twilight, when the students of the Day Class return to their dorm, they cross paths with the Night Class on their way to school. Yuki Cross and Zero Kiryu are the Guardians of the school, there to protect the Day Class from the Academy's dark secret: the Night Class is full of vampires.

watch it here : www.crunchyroll.com/group/CRSeries_-_Vampire_Knight

9 1/2 thumbs up :D

ps: there is no reason for you not to watch :D

bored at home with nothing to do so i decided to post this lols..
www.onemanga.com you can read lots of manga from here too and the art work is really nice :)
geez how i wish school will re-open soon..
i miss my bunnies T.T

2008-06-07T19:01:00.002+08:00

never go church today :(
today is suppose to be combine service ...
joanna went to genting at 5.40am today~~
stayed at home the whole day AGAIN.
i think i am going crazy soon T.T

2008-06-06T16:48:00.002+08:00

i feel like an animal being caged up :(

got to do homework
got to study
got to get good results
got to do this got to do that..
no holiday for me until end of 2009..
:'(

2008-06-05T17:28:00.003+08:00

went to watch a 5.45pm show at Jurong Point with youth Impact yesterday. the show was awesemo!! the whole cinema was occupied with YI people and even the front row was occupied!

frankly, i think peter is cuter then caspian :D

don't u think so? :3

anyway, things are getting better for me at home.. hopefully i will be able to attend the combine service this Saturday..
homework is piling up :| better go finish them up so i can slack abit more in the days to come..
Enjoy!

Switchfoot - This is Home -

2008-06-03T17:25:00.013+08:00

PHOTOS FROM SARWAK(:

ALL ARE IN RANDOM ORDERS(:

Lastly, whats a camp without a camp fire :D

sad to say, i lost alot of photos.. some are really nice but i just can't find them..

i rmb that i took some photos of the beach and from the plane but they are all gone.. random pics with random meanings :]

2008-06-02T22:27:00.002+08:00

i am grounded.
g.r.o.u.n.d.e.d
that means i can't go out at all and i have only 45 mins to travel back from school if there is a need to go school.. looking at the textbooks makes me feel like sleeping already.. how can i even look at the questions :x
there's still maths classes tomorrow from 9am to 1pm..

can't go out ..
can't go church..
can't go anywhere..
T.T

2008-05-29T22:40:00.003+08:00

wow my blog is almost dead:x
was back from sarawak like 4, 5 daes ago?
had lots of fun and the whole trip was great!
lots and lots and lots of pics and i dun intend to post it up here! :D
20 may 2008

left my house at 8pm and went to rui fen's house.
help her packed her bag -.-
went out at nine plus, near ten..
went to bpp to slack around.. ruifen brought potato salad from long john
had to help rambutan buy his strawberry milkshake cause he can't run-.-
brought a chocolate milkshake.. took 75. went bukit timah shopping center.
met up with kah ling and amanda.. slacked while waiting for muxi and yin keat.
they were dammn slow luhs! after lots of slacking and in and out of the arcade, they finally came at midnight. played pool till 12.45am.. took midnight cab to ruifen's house. took our backpacks and went to bpp to meet kah ling and amanda. muxi and yin keat went shao han's hse. the four of us look like run away kids :D ate maggie mee from 7 eleven.. slack & slack & slack-.-zzzz
2.30am. walked to school.. took some free plastic bags on the way..lols
sat at the roadside for fun..some dudes on the bikes came.. so noisy :x followed us so we quickly walked to school.. wanted to went for a night walk to the D&T room. lots of rumors saes that it is haunted..in the end, some of us chickened out and we walked to the basketball court instead. nice=) got my class tee and all of us set off on the coach at 4am. send sister nana a goodbye and she thought i wanted to commit sucide -.- ... bye bye singapore at 4.30am
21 May 2008
reach JB, senai airport. first time took a plane from the outside ladder thingy and not from the connector.. i think it is because our airline is too cheap and the plane is too small and the connector thingy door is too big thats why lols.. but the view was dammn nice luhs! landed at sarawak,kunching international airport after an hour and a half..our tour guide EDWARD has hair coming out from both of his ears *scary*.. x: went straight to sarawak culture village.. fun fun fun...the guys there had tattoos and they wear G-strings -.- ... had fake tattoos during the camp and it was quite ok.. went 游山玩水.. trek to some jungle and they said that we could see a waterfall.. in the end it was a small stream -.- ... everyone wore their class tee on that dae though.. i guess the most memorable thing about the culture village is the SWING! it was super big and we just kept plaeing on it... fell down from it like twice? cause 5?6? people tried to stand on it at once -o-真好笑.. played *daidi(?)* till like 12midnight then got to walk back to the girl's dorm.. long long way T.T
22 May 2008
last dae in sarawak culture village aka longhouse..they had a almost one hour drama thingy which is suppose to tell us about the different culture and um.. tribes they have in sarawak.. but the sofa(?) was too comfy and the air-con was too cold..so i was actually sleeping throughout the whole thing.. lols x: waved goodbye even though no-one waved back -.-" headed to a nice nice beach.. it was BIG and LoooooooonG... can see only one 山 but it was a small one. the culture village has two 山..小山和大山..and they are both pretty 山s :) lols dun noe why but it reminds me of shan yao:p
went to (cherish) home for an hour.. we were suppose to talk and interact with the people leaving there but in the end we were looking more at the products they made instead.. it was quite nice.. spending 1 hour talking to them even though we don't noe what they are talking about and colouring with them.. heard that singapore has one too :o
on that day i actually learned something.. that veggies and chicken are seafood -.- went to a SEAFOOD restruant near the beach and they keep serving veggies till the last dish.. they served chicken and fish.. i thought it was suppose to be a seafood restruant? ... checked in to http://www.merdekapalace.com/ at 2.30pm :) nice nice nice! shared an apartment with kahling, amanda and ruifen.+ belinda(even though she was not suppose to be with us). the boys came in without bathing *yucks* and started making lots of noise while playing their cards..went shopping after that..brought kfc(?) and played pokers with the guys..amanda keep drinking heineken and was as red as a tomatoe..we had 3 tvs in our apartment :D one is in the living room and two are in my room. one of them is really cool. my room's window is directly from the pool so u just got to open the curtains and all the guys from our school is there*yucks* some not bad luhs.. got some muscles but some.. errmm hahas..
our night was gone just like that.. hahas
23 May 2008
went wind and fairy cave...i mean wind cave..EDWARD dunwanna go to the fairy cave -.- saw bats and bats and more bats.. quite cool ehhs.. after that we went to the pottery factory? had hands on activity :D it was GREAT! dun noe wad happen to belinda -.- she go hit the pile of clay with her fist then in the end cannot do liaos-.- adrian tried to do a ____ out of it -.- as pervetic as always..
went shopping after that.. i wonder why did they bring us to the shopping mall. branded shops like...burberry, MNG, roxy, Bonia, 三sprit(?) all so expensive de... had piercing with amanda,kahling,ruifen,belinda,charmaine and Jane. cause its like dammn cheap and the studs are nice hahas. went to buy lots and lots of food and drink and maggiemee and we headed back to the hotel on the coach. the boys were swimming as usual and we decided to eat infront of them lols.. kahling even turn on the football channel and had the screen facing towards the window -.-" ... played cards and stuff and it was getting boring so the whole 3c gathered at ahmel's apartment..they had the largest room of all and it can fit all of us.. everyone played cards and some were on their PsP.. amanda & alastair were foolind around even though they are not an item.. i think amanda was pretty drunk..she had 2 cans of heineken the dae before and 2 more cans on that dae..when u r drunk, u lose your senses. >.< miss goh and mr marcus had their usual spot check at 12am and warn that all boys shuld go back to their own room... the night was still young but too bad.. at around 1 am, ben and a few guys sneaked down to our room.. ordered room service and the bill came up to around $50.. plaed cards again and many people fall aslp withouht noeing..
24 May 2008
last dae in sarawak..went to the orang utans rehab center.. didn't noe dat even orang utans have rehab center.. got to walk like 1 km?? it was cool and the tour guide makes it sound so scary.. the most daring thing that the orang utans had done is to stip a tourist naked :o saw how they eat and the mother and the daughter OU.. saw 2 male OU which the tour guide claim that they will rape the two female one when they got the chance.. rapist keep chasing the 2 females.. headed back on a bus which everyone had to pay 1RM :) went shopping again.. brought a capo and got a free pick :) checked out at 4pm? head to kuching international airport.. had starbucks and was slacking and crapping all the way.. belinda did something stupid and made us all laugh like crazy.. and yeah everyone was looking at us :x checked in at 6.10pm.. as usual we(amanda,kahling,belinda,ruifen,me-.-) were late... didn't miss the flight though :D had a fever during the flight.. this always happens to me.. lols. reach johor senai airport.. by the time service had ended.. took the coach and it was quite a long ride.. near 35 km.. reached singapore at 9+ and with our backpacks, we went to Bpp.. saw many many people.. don't know what was happening..too tired to bother.. slacked abit and reach home at about 10.30pm. how i miss the times at sarawak.. and everyone in 3C promised that we will go back together as a class somedae.. :D

2008-05-16T21:56:00.002+08:00

changed my blog skin.
things seems to be clearer & brighter now..
never go school todae .. & i found out that miss eng came back to visit us todae T.T
last dae of school, never expexted her to come back.. bust yeah she did. haishh..camp in a few daes time :D church's in tmr :D pulau ubin on monday:D
3 cheers for everything..
why do i just feel that something is missing..

2008-05-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

2008-05-13T21:06:00.003+08:00

first thing first, joanna & joey Happy Birthday!

lols.. my blog seems so dead.. & it is dead.

2008-05-12T20:55:00.002+08:00

now i know what my heart truly desire (: & i will never regret my decision.

2008-05-05T22:23:00.003+08:00

Siao Char Bor.. messing up my stuff-.-

tution was cancelled again. hope that sister joys gets well soon.. pon POA with belinda & amanda & kah ling.. went up to the 7th story sit there and slack. then after that saw miss ong -.- so went to the 6th floor toilet and charmaine and isabel were there too. both of them pon pure geo. haas. sit in the toilet like have some sort of gathering like that..crap.went out with amanda & kah ling to greenridge today. lols.its my first time there even though i've studied in west spring for 2 years 5 months and 5 days -.- so there got kfc, handphone shop, pizza hut, cd rental, kopitiam & other stuff.. not bad ehs..both of them "coope" like 4 pairs of earrings..what the. want to go "coope" pens somemore..-.-everytime when i am with them, i feel like going back to the past again.it suxs.

2008-05-05T18:02:00.003+08:00

when words fail, music speaks.

Rough Draft

Like a Saturday night I'll be gone

Like a Saturday night I'll be gone before you knew I that was there

So you wrote it down, I'm supposed to care

Even though it's never there

Sorry if I'm not prepared

Is it hard to see the things you substitute

For me and all my thoughts of you

It's eating me alive to leave you

Maybe it's childish and maybe it's wrong

But so is your blank stare in lieu of this song

Maybe it's childish and maybe it's wrong

Don't want to be, don't want to be wrong

You're leaving me, you're leaving me in lieu of this song

Don't want to be, don't want to be wrong

You're leaving me, you're leaving me in lieu of this song

I'm breathing in your skin tonight

Quiet is my loudest cry

Wouldn't want to wake the eyes that make me melt inside

And if it's healthier to leave you be

May a sickness come and set me free

Kill me while I still believe that you were meant for me

I'm finding my own words, my own little stage

My own epic drama, my own scripted page

I'll send you the rough draft, I'll seal it with tears

Maybe you'll read it and I'll reappear

From the start it was shaky and the characters rash

A nice setting for heartache where emotions come last

All I have deep inside, to overcome this desire

Are friendly intentions and fairweather smiles

And I don't want to be, don't want to be wrong

You're leaving me, you're leaving me in lieu of this song

Don't want to be, don't want to be wrong

You're leaving me, you're leaving me in lieu of this song

Like Saturday night I'll be gone

Like Saturday night I'll be gone before you knew I that was there

2008-05-04T22:24:00.002+08:00

hurting like hell.
nothing will be alright.
why can't i make it go away..

2008-05-04T13:32:00.002+08:00

Hapy 2 months :)

2008-05-01T17:29:00.005+08:00

the piggyness in me is killing me!
i have been sleeping since (shall not sae)
and i woke up at (shall not sae)
then i went back to sleep again after reading a book at (shall not sae)
then i wake up again at (shall not sae) .... :x
such a pig -o- sleep sleep sleep sleep
but hey,thats life right? :D

2008-04-30T19:17:00.002+08:00

i am blogging now, when i am suppose to be in school for amaths extra lesson :o
no school tomorrow!! how great is that? :D
for the first time today, victoria chong had actually allowed us to slack in class. how cool is that? heees. speaking about teachers, i'm gonna miss this two awesome one really soon :'(
first of all, miss michelle eng. she teachers 3C chemistry!
it all begins somewhere in february?
"miss" melissa chew's chemistry lessons was as boring as usual.. then one fine day came this teacher call miss eng. she looks fierce at first.. but gradually she made the whole class fell in love with chemistry :D even caleb choo who don't even know what does electrons means actually knows what is ionic bonding after the teachings my miss eng :D sadly she will be leaving soon. she had been posted to National JC.. sadded.
next, Mr Germaine Heng.
his english lessons are all uber fun luh & atleast a hundred million times better then victoria chong.. and he will be getting married somewhere in June..his fiancee very pretty cans :](Mr heng,must treat her well, or else..[:) why do all the good teachers have to leave so fast? he will be leaving on the 5 of may..that is like five six days from today? :'( gees, shall miss the days with them..life will spell H.E.L.L after they leave..must be mentally prepared le..

i will miss him & her. *emo emo*

2008-04-29T22:49:00.003+08:00

had my chem paper today..
shan't talk much about it.
English, Chinese, Poa, Social Studies, History and now chem..
all down (:
now left with maths, physics and amaths..
lalalala..
no paper tomorrow! woohoos!
i shall name wednesday as the official : SLACKING DAY [:\

ps: credits to joanna for the blog song
ps/ps: credits to cwsm for the post below
ps/ps/ps: i still think that my blogskin is so not me. -o-

2008-04-29T21:44:00.003+08:00

爱？

一个朋友告诉我，他哭了，为了一个女孩。
一定很爱很爱她吧。
爱到不知道怎么办才好。

男孩在你面前哭说明他已经快要窒息了,
如果你拉住他的手，他真的可以陪你走完一生;
如果你放弃了他，他会很难再回到以前的自己。
他的话音刚落，我心中突然很压抑?想到了他?那个曾经为我哭泣的男孩。

那一个夜晚，那一个电话，那个男人，孩子般的男人，在我的那一端很用力的哭，孩子气的哭，很闷的声音，手心潮湿，很模糊的语句，：再给我们一个机会 ````再，我真的，真的，不可以没有你```我错了，好，好后悔````，听到他含糊的声音，含糊的哭泣，忽然觉得很温暖，很心疼，好心疼，痛的感觉像潮水，涌出来，没有预兆的，让人窒息````如果对于明天没有要求，牵牵手就像旅游。可是，我们是那么认真的讨论过我们的未来，我们要一起去坐浪漫公车，一起闭着眼睛过马路，陪你一起去教堂弹钢琴，一起逛街挑选窗帘，一起散步遛狗，一起一起到老`````我选择了原谅，给彼此一个机会，看到他的眼泪，拉住了他的手``现在，我很快乐.

男孩，不轻易哭泣，只有面对最爱的人时，才会变得脆弱。
男孩，不轻易哭泣，只有在太爱你的时候，才会放下自尊。
女孩，如果有个男孩为你哭，请拉住他的手，他真的可以陪你走完一生。
女孩，如果有个男孩为你哭，请不要放弃他，也许一个选择会毁掉一个人。

喜欢一个人，在一起的时候会很开心
爱一个人，在一起的时候，会莫名的失落

喜欢一个人，你不会想到你们的将来
爱一个人，你们常常在一起憧憬明天

喜欢一个人，在一起的时候永远是欢乐
爱一个人，你会常常流泪

喜欢一个人，当你们好久不见，你会突然想起他
爱一个人，当你们好久不见，你会天天想着他

喜欢一个人，当你想起他，你会微微一笑
爱一个人，当你想起他，你会对着天空发呆

喜欢一个人，你会想,他有了孩子，你一定会很喜欢，
爱一个人，会有一天，你突然很好奇：将来我们的孩子会是什么样子

喜欢一个人就是希望大家都开心
爱一个人希望他会更开心

喜欢一个人，你要得只是今天
爱一个人，你期望的是永远

喜欢一个人，是看到了他的优点
爱一个人，是包容了他的缺点

喜欢和爱的区别就在于
当你站在你爱的人面前,你的心跳会加速
当你与你爱的人四目交投,你会害羞

但当你站在你喜欢的人面前,你只感到开心
但当你与你喜欢的人四目交投,你只会微笑. 　　　　

当你与你爱的人对话,你觉得难以启齿
当你爱的人哭,你会陪她一起哭

但当你和你喜欢的人对话,你可以畅所欲言
但当你喜欢的人哭,你会技巧的安慰她. 　　　　

当你不想再爱一个人,你要闭上眼睛并忍着泪水
当你不想再喜欢一个人,你只要掩住双耳! 　　　

喜欢，是一种心情
爱，是一种感情

喜欢，是一种直觉
爱，是一种感觉

喜欢，可以停止
爱，没有休止

喜欢一个人，特别自然
爱一个人，特别坦然

喜欢一个人，有时候盼和他在一起
爱一个人，有时候怕和他在一起

喜欢一个人，不停的和他争执
爱一个人，不停的为他付出

喜欢一个人，希望他可以随时找到自己
爱一个人，希望可以随时找到他

喜欢一个人，总是为他而笑
爱一个人，总是为他而哭

喜欢，是执着
爱，是值得

喜欢就是喜欢，很简单
爱就是爱，很复杂

喜欢你，却不一定爱你
爱你，就一定很喜欢你

其实，喜欢和爱仅一步之遥但，想要迈这一步就看你是喜欢迈这一步还是爱迈这一步

2008-04-20T21:38:00.002+08:00

feeling tired these days. just plain tired. totally feels nothing now. maybe its all too late. and the song shall speak of what my heart says. i'm sorry.

2008-04-19T22:50:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: August 23

You're not good at any one thing, and that's the problem.

You're good at so much - you never know what to do.

Change is in your blood, and you don't stick to much for long.

You are destined for a life of travel and fun.

Your strength: Your likeability

Your weakness: You never feel satisfied

Your power color: Bright yellow

Your power symbol: Asterisk

Your power month: May

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

2008-04-18T22:25:00.004+08:00

Have you ever heard that a picture speaks a thousand words?

i've just a bastard.

2008-04-17T21:58:00.002+08:00

i rmb the laughters and jokes we had.
i rmb the times we share.
i rmb the times when you are down.
i rmb the promises we made.
but it seems like u dun rmb them at all.
i'm not going to cry, i'm not going to be sad.
i'm just gonna live my life, the way it is suppose to live.
if only i can really do it..

2008-04-16T15:30:00.003+08:00

never go school today...first time my papa say i don't need to go school because i feel tired :x
had sufficient sleep today.lols. anyway, theres nothing much to do in school. i only feel that i should go school because there's history lesson today. but wadever..its already like 3.40pm now? whats the point of saying all this :

prayer meeting day.

2008-04-15T19:08:00.005+08:00

whoever is able to read this now, fuck off. they are white for a reason, if not u thing what? boliao ah.. asshole.
slack the whole day today.
skip PE for dun noe how many minutes and spend my life in a place call toilet. went to the toilet 3 times in less then an hour. slack and slack.. kalarani nvr come todae. so physics teacher came in. watch soccer, then watch a few commercial then last ten minuets then teach us chapter 5. first time he smiled. and he should smile more because he will make him look whiter :x lols.

during mother tounge, i was sitting with ruifen, lester and kenneth. then the guys were like horny luh... talk about blahblahblahblahblahblahblah... then caleb came to sit beside kenneth and they were talking about blahblahblahblahblah.. me and ruifen laughed like siao. then suddenly caleb shouted across the classroom "Adrian! your ___ no ___ ah" and the whole class laugh like siao .___.

english was even worse... out of a sudden, Mr Heng talked about _____ also know as _____ and yeah the same thing happened as what during mother tounge. .____.

had oral today. i was the last ... waited like 3 hrs before i was tested..i guess i screwed up..
friday is the Joanna day =] Joanna we're gonna drill you =D just jking :x

2008-04-14T22:25:00.001+08:00

please dun do it.
please dun do it.
please dun do it.
)':

2008-04-11T23:55:00.001+08:00

to Joanna Koh:
.........................

2008-04-09T22:05:00.002+08:00

witness an hit and run accident todae.

it was horrible and disgusting.
a poor yellow disgusting hairy fat and yucky worm was hanging from a tree.. pathetically, it was trying to climb back to the tree on a string that was attached to it. and it was obviously too slow..so when the bus came, *BAM* the worm got hit flat on the bus windscreen.(the bus windscreen is flat like this ) yeah so poor guy flew.. and was dead flat on the floor...eeew.

Eunice daddy told me that the worm was suppose to bounce of the road because of the fat it has on its body -.- -.- -.-

after that went to eat with her...blah blah blah.. and she told me that today is her 8 months with Mr Authur aka Colour..i was like "then what the hell are u doing here with me" lols.. cute right she -.- anyway she decided to fold hearts for him then went to fajar to buy straws...

*currently folding hearts for her...* man, why am i doing this >.<

2008-04-08T20:38:00.004+08:00

went to watch Shutter with monster today. freaking scary..i was like scaring myself before the movie luh. the whole cinema so big only got two person watching. so many parts don't dare to watch then in the end we two were like huddling together... she keep saeing that she isn't scared of scary movies but she was like covering her ears throughout the whole movie -o-" fifteen minuets after the show started, a couple came in. after the show ended, they were nowhere in sight. *freakY* i will give shutter 2 thumbs up. who ask them copy the thailand shutter -.-

*I had a bad day :*

2008-04-07T21:00:00.004+08:00

Friday
went to Ian's house with Amanda. actually was planning to go out with ahmel de but....yeah
anyway, his drums was those like "fake" the lols hahas. after that his bro came back.. shoo us out of the house..everyone was like what the ??!! bastard lols.. come in show his black face..already black enough le still show black face .. i mean we are in Ian's room so why should he care so much-.- anyway so we went off to 7-eleven. me and amanda brought cup noodles and we went to the nearby car park to slack.. luckily still have my guitar if not we will all be bored to death =]

Saturday

church as usual. nothing much except that it was an awesome day =]

Sunday

slack.do homeowrk.slack.

monday

went out with ahmel after school=] thank you love =]

this may be my last post. i'm not alive anymore.

2008-04-06T17:40:00.001+08:00

I HATE U -.-

heard this from sandy: cheong seng and chow chin and the rest will be coming back tomorrow.. wonder if it is true or not haas. shall be attending the baptism on 20th april even though i am not baptizing. deleted my previous post.. full of crap and stuff.-.-. have been having weird dream lately..lols.during guitar lesson today, everyone was like sharing stuff about the supernatrual, remind me of some dreams and stuff..freaky. wonder will i have another physical contact with the spirits again lol.. i mean i already had it twice ...zzz can't wait for them to be back =]

2008-04-04T01:01:00.002+08:00

Happy One Month cookiemonster!
love you love you love you :)
sorry for the times that i cannot go out with you..对不起
must study hard kaes! love you :)

2008-04-03T23:15:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to Miss Goh Jia Li and Victor :)

school was fun today..

sat beside cookiemonster during chinese and physics.. crap alot.Bahas

then jingwei was sitting beside us so out of a sudden we ask him what is _ _ _ _ _ _ :x

and he was just lost for words.. BAhAs! we ask him lots of umm dumb questions luhs and he don't dare to say out the answer for any of the questions.haas

stayed in school till 5pm with kah ling and amanda.. i actually skipped my cca xp

they were jumping like bunnies luhs.. drink carrot juice somemore haas .. so cute..

after that me and amanda walked to senja lrt.. saw kenneth and taizong, keep talking about _ _ _ _ _ _... ask if they got eat before bluh bluh bluh :x

made a new friend today : KENNETH Lim YU JIE =]feel like crying all over agian :x lols

2008-04-01T18:24:00.002+08:00

trevor lee,in case u are reading this, just wanna tell you that...i love you no more =]

I love Singapore!

jun kiat keep disiao me...then my cousin came to my rescue lols..

say what stay away from him blah blah blah.. he is a no good bastard...blahblahblah

i was like, how lols..his class is just next to mine -.-zzz

anyway todae is april fool! i've been fooled..-.- have you?

i copied u :x H.A.F!

2008-03-31T15:23:00.006+08:00

i'm glad everything is alrught? ;)
a picture speaks a thousand words..
have you found yours?

2008-03-30T13:52:00.007+08:00

怎样面对一切, 我不知道.

cheong seng, edward, lopex, geogina, chow chin, theresa, ken lim, bro rixiang...and some others are heading for china tomorrow. Bye Bye! *waves*

tired and sleepy. i want to sleep. LOLS
some old classic:

新不了情
心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮暮与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

我讨厌失去以前的你, 你只不知道?

我有好多好多话想对你说.

但是我看我永远都说不出口了.

你在那里?你听的到吗?

还是你一直以来都不知道..

我讨厌我自己为什么那么爱你.

2008-03-30T01:45:00.002+08:00

这真的是爱吗?对不起.我不想相信也不想接受.但是我还是忘不了他.就是那个他.

sister nana struck me with some questions todae..
why am i always guarding myself? why am i always so insercue?
i was lost for words.
i am someone who is naive and stupid. maybe cause of this thats why i am like this?
i am afraid of being hurt and i hate to be in that kind of "i don't know what else i can do" situation. i don't feel the love i want from my family. maybe because i am expecting too much? or they show me their love in some way that i cannot see it. at times i would get paranoid easliy. lets just say that i'm abnormal. things in school isn't getting any better. guys like yin keat and victor are always teasing about me and adrian or me and clement being together. that kind of awkward plus idiotic feeling just kinda make me feel like banging my head against the wall. am i suppose to feel insercue? i mean i've already recieve Christ into my life, i'm not suppose to feel that way yeah? but i still feel that way. i rather isolate myself then be with a group of people and feel left out. i'm always thinking that people are against me. hearing other people whispering when i am near them make me feel that they making bad remarks around me. even my posting this post make me start to think about the reactions from people i would get later.
why don't i try to be more sercue in God and not be so insercue anymore?
i don't even trust myself, how can i trust others..
great..all these posting about being insercue make me feel like i've some sort of depression or somthing..lols.

random:
a saturday like any other saturday. but my saturday is filled with words from God(:

i did my qt today, have u done yours? (:

2008-03-28T19:36:00.003+08:00

had a paint fight after school today. =D who ask Muxi, yin keat and victor to bully us first..>.<

well that girl by the name of don't know what left a box of paint on the table. so yin keat start to play with the box of paint.. then out of a sudden while i was doing my physics homework, he called my name. a normal person will respond and look up and i did. the result? i got a big yellow dash of paint on my face -.- like that of course want revenge right...

MEANWHILE...

muxi also went to disiao the other girl by the name of don't know what. and she also want revenge.. yeah so we allied each other ...

after a dash of paint of here and there, finally "painted" yin keat's face...=D but at the same time he painted my face again ... muxi was not even "painted" at all and that girl was super angry =

so while we were all painting here and there, agnes and jasmin just sit down there and watch.. still dare to cheer somemore... while in the end, with paint all over our face and hair and uniform, we manage to paint yin keat's bag.. ^^! paint one cloud, three smiley faces (: then write..aheem. i mean painted YK big big then everyone will know is his bag. hahas. i wonder if the paint is removable :o

walked to senja lrt with agnes and mingduan in that 暴风雨. cold like don't know what. we look like some pontianaks who just had a swim. lols. everyone was looking at us in the Lrt probably wondering why didn't we wait for the rain to stop first. but it was fun, it had been a long time since i've done this. lols =] overseas camp is coming soon.. as in "soon". looking forward to it =]

SPECIALLY to JOANNA KOH :

there's a surprise for you tomrrow. be prepared bah. hahas =]. TTJ or WLW. think properly bahs. you should know the answer not me . haas =]

2008-03-27T23:18:00.002+08:00

don't think too much(:
relax relax.hahas.
see you on sat(:

2008-03-27T19:02:00.004+08:00

我现在只想静静的走这走这...

had a good night slp yesterday. duhh.. cause i slept for don't know how many hours..

slept at 5.30 woke up at 9.50. sleep again at 1.30 woke up at 6.15. =x

and i never do any of my homework.. which is nothing cause none of my teacher went through any of the homework. kuakua= lesson was boring as usual though..

i'm ask to lead in the prayer group tomorrow cause Ian won't be in school. die die die.

am i even on the right track? one thing for sure, i have made my choice and i'm not going to change it =]

sometimes, words are not enough

Cookiemonster, thank you for today. really appreciate it (:

2008-03-26T23:10:00.001+08:00

J and L
so cute ^^

2008-03-26T17:07:00.002+08:00

说不出口又是为什么?害怕就是为什么.但是我还是要说一声谢谢你(: 我也喜欢你 (:

开心! 为什么呢? 因为我今天又被人家欺负...
怪胎.怪胎.我是个怪胎. 被人家欺负还那么开心..
有时后,带上面具是最好的..真的.
可怜的我....很好玩吗?-.-
but it was fun luhss.
i mean i got my revenge too.
♥ revenge is sweet♥
yin keat actually knows leonard orhhs..
wat a connection..哈哈.
....its a random mistake =] ciiaos

smtimes i don't know what i am thinking myself.
it will be better if i had been sitting alone in the jailcell.
thinking my life and wasting it away.
weird habit on listening to techno..
i'm not suppose to in the first place. i'm sorry but i couldn't help it.
life have been great these days! full of laughter when i recieve your sms =] thanks!
=)

2008-03-25T22:04:00.002+08:00

bullied by yin keat and victor today ):
they keep wanting me to bribe them with sweets..
and its starting to piss me off.
mr santok isin't in school again.
he claimed to be the best history teacher in this school
blah blah blah blah...
yeah so what if he really is? he dosen't even bother to come to teach during lessons.
as a result, we are stuck at chapter 2 for like 1 month plus?
what a great teacher he is...
change my blogskin again..
decided to use back my old blogskin...it looks brighter then ytd..
school life is boring..
what will happen if everyday is the same as today?
i will probably be bored to death..Lols.
*qijun is officially dead.

当我最需要你的时候,你却不在.
我把我自己给弄糊涂了...

2008-03-24T21:12:00.002+08:00

done with my blog
shall post later =]

2008-03-17T23:00:00.003+08:00

had a spiritual attack just now.. it was scary? cool? crazy?
i don't know =x
things are building up, bit by bit.
its tough but i will hold on to it =]
i've broken my promise...
i can't help it.
these songs are like my everything.
but one thing for sure, i've stop listening to linkin park's songs and i am not affected by the other songs. i wonder what will sis nana and cheong seng do if they finds out =x
thinking about stuffs and stonning away lately.
thinking about the stuff that happen a few days, a few weeks, a few months ago.
wish that some would just disappear while the others being drawn out..
its tough to give up.. it really is.
not the same again.

2008-03-13T14:11:00.003+08:00

Leonard Ong is back..
but there isn't much difference. haas
feeling drowsy and sick now. i think it is due to the panadols.
zzzz
whats wrong with me..keep eating those panadols...
i've been acting weird lately and i don't even know why o.o

2008-03-07T23:33:00.006+08:00

bullshited alot ytd..all thanks to mr leonard ong chee yong. -o-

promise to give trevor 703 folded stars on his bdae which is on the 24 of october.

(keep forgetting.=x)

leonard's bdae is on the 080908..

hmm wondering wat to give him.. a slap or two? maybe. haas

March holiday is here! =D

gees. i'm becoming a dumb person who love to swear. eeew

church in tomorrow...

dunch feel like going though.

no choice. hope that they don't see the scars.

one beautiful song,here is it

teardrops on my guitar

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about

And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny

That I can't even see anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,

I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star

He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?

And there he goes, so perfectly,The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love

Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause
[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light

I'll put his picture down and maybeGet some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart

He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

He's the time taken up, but there's never enough

And he's all that I need to fall into..

i don't know whats wrong with me.

i don't know what desicion to make.

i'm really tired of everything.

at the same time, i cannot let go of the things i want to ):

2008-02-28T20:37:00.001+08:00

You are The Chariot

Triumph, Victory, Overcoming Obstacles.

The chariot is one of the most complex cards to define. On its most basic level, it implies war, a struggle, and an eventual, hard-won victory. Either over enemies, obstacles, nature, the beasts inside you, or to just get what you want. But there is a great deal more to it. The charioteer wears emblems of the sun, yet the sign behind this card is the moon. The chariot is all about motion, and yet it is often shown as stationary. It is a union of opposites, like the black and white steeds. They pull in different directions, but must be (and can be!) made to go together in one direction. Control is required over opposing emotions, wants, needs, people, circumstances; bring them together and give them a single direction, your direction. Confidence is also needed and, most especially, motivation. The card can, in fact, indicate new motivation or inspiration, which gets a stagnant situation moving again.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

its happened again

2008-02-25T20:26:00.003+08:00

Brenda,alyssa,alex,leonard loo,melody,victoria..
these ppl backslided...
then on saturday, melissa, trevor lee AND leonard ong told me that they want to backslide too. with 8 people in the process of backsliding or had already backslided,
i was wondering when will i become one of them.
its not because of them so whoever is reading these(even though no one is suppose to read this) don think that i am influence by them cause i am not. i've been thinking about this for a long time and i've finally come up with this conclusion. i will do my best in this church while i can. and when the time is right, i will go. i don't know where i will go. But i will go..maybe i will stop coming to church. i've doubt God too many times. and i think that sometimes God don't need a person like me to worship me. losing one is okay to him right? i mean there is like a few billion people out there. but as for now i will do all my best in bringing people to him because i don't want people to become like me. what will i do after i don't go to church? start clubbing? smoking? maybe... i don't know. i will decide as time goes.
yeap thats my conclusion.gees. i'm addicted to blogging again.

23rd February 08.
Melody left church without telling me anything. i was hoping that i will see her next week but it end up to be the last time she is stepping into this church. she gave me a note via gillot. thanks gillot. anyway, this is the content of the letter...

Qi Jun,
Hey there Ms Lollipop, I'm guessing that you haven't change your nick. Anyway, thanks for the memories you've given me while i'm in this church. All those night time calls which lasted for hours? I'll never forget them & you. Hehe. Keep smiling and take care always. You're the future of that place i guess. So all the best to you! Jia You! Let's hang out someday.=) Take care & all the best for your studies! Lastly , i'll be changing/leaving church for now or for good, i do not know but it is of no relevance. =P Smile! Ikea soon?
From:
Melody

i cried and i cried. even when i am typing this post now i am still crying. she is my best friend. this was what happened when Brenda leave. i still miss brenda alot.. alot.. i do care really i do.
why is everyone around me leaving? WHY?!

25 February 2008
Melissa left for shanghai for 7 weeks. i miss her and i will miss her alot.
i no it is not goodbye forever but it is as if she is gone from this church forever.
she is probably sleeping or shopping in shanghai now. she left today in the morning at 10am.
I Love You! come back soon!

tears have been flowing down and they are uncontroable.
its not like i can help it.

2008-02-22T23:46:00.003+08:00

back again... after hiding -.-
2008. let it be a better year =D

2007-12-08T23:48:00.000+08:00

martyr am i a martyr of Christ? am i realli who i claim to be? after reading JEsus Freaks, i seem to be someone who just know God but i don noe him. i start to doubt if i will stand firm when trouble come or will i choose the easy way out. if it is a life and death question will i still stand firm? reading Jesus Freaks let me thinks about all this. i don wan to be someone who talk a load full of crap and does nothing in the end. what is real faith? what is strong faith? what is a close relationship with God. i don realli seem to know God after all. maybe i should start from starting line again. it dosen't matter where i am now. i nid a strong foundation just like my maths. because i do not have a strong foundation is maths that is why it is so lousy right now and i don want the same thing to happen in my life with God. what should i do?

mission trip is ment to be something that will change my life.it is something that will build my relationship with others but instead, my relationship with some of the people i know became worse. i was wondering what went wrong and i came down with this conclusion. that is my attitude. attitude is veri important. what attitude u have is how u will answer people. i guess my attitude really suxs. sometimes i get irritated by ppl who just come up to sae that i am emoing when i am just sitting alone thinking about something. but come to think of it, am i not emoing? its realli weird to not know what u r doing sometimes. for example what i write now dosen't make sense to myself. i jsut keep on typing asnd typing and typing hoping that it will nvr end... but it will end soon rite? like probably..Now.

2007-11-26T22:59:00.000+08:00

gone tmr!
back in 9 daes.
i'm gnging to misss my bed.
i'm gnging to miss using com.
i'm gnging to miss my pillow.
but who cares when u can be use by God =D
tomorrow i will be gone!
hooray

2007-11-24T22:45:00.000+08:00

Unreasonable! and i am so suck up now.
this is just plain stupid.
its really stupid.
i'm so tired doing all these.
i am too tired.
tired...
i just don get what they are thinking.
i just don want to carry this on
i want it to stop
be it consequences or a test
i relli can't go on anymore.
in the box skit.
one of the mime loses all his energy in the end
and he sit on the floor head down and died.

it dosen't matter anymore
i'm tired
realli tired.

2007-11-22T16:43:00.000+08:00

its such a lame blog....i should close it 0.0
close close close
close close close

i was just jking =x

2007-11-22T00:14:00.000+08:00

has been feeling real down lately.everything just dosen't seems to fit. its just like u got his uncomplete puzzle but the rest of the pieces just don fit. super sick of it. training is tough. espacially the skits.pheew.tution tomorrow.meeting waiying.training on fridae then church on sat and fundraising on sundae. oh my tian...can't realli concentrate on my stuff nw.negleting my family and my mum is not veri happi about it. nothing is working. nothing...=x

2007-11-19T22:31:00.000+08:00

SAWADEE KAH!
i'm gonging thailand soon and chan poot pasar thai mai dai.
haiish practising real hard though.
i wonder if i will fall sick again just like last yr
cause i realli dun wan that to happen.
the whole feeling is realli awful. xp
yi camp is coming soon follow by christmas bash
WAHAhahaS

2007-11-15T23:16:00.000+08:00

gees
gees
gees

a change of blogs
a change of life

gees
gees
gees

wats up with my gees.

is it too much to ask?

2007-11-15T00:19:00.000+08:00

OK I'M SUPER IRRITATED.
WHY DOES IT KEEP HAPPENING TO ME
GET THE FREAKING HELL OUT OF HERE
WHOEVER YOU ARE!
I'M FREAKING IRRITATED.
SAY THAT TO ME IN THE FACE IF U DARE
DON PUT A DUMB NAME CALL CUTIEPIE
AND START INSULTING ME
IF YOU DON LIKE TO SEE ME
THEN NEXT TIME WHEN YOU SEE ME RUN
RUN AS FAR AS POSSIBLE OK??!!
FREAKING IDIOTIC PERSON
YEAH YEAH I LIKE TO SMELL MY NEIGHBOUR'S
UNDERWEAR OK?! HAPPY NOW?!
HOW MANY TIME MUST I CHANGE MY URL BEFORE THESE
FREAKING STUFF STOP?
SHIT HELL.
LET ME TELL YOU ONE MORE TIME.
YOU WANNA SCOLD ME SCOLD ME FACE TO FACE
IF NOT DON BE A SCARY CAT, PUT SOME IDIOTIC NAME AND START
INSULTING ME IN MY BLOG.GET IT?!
HELL YOU.

I REALLI CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.
I'M ABOUT TO BREAK.
I'M TOO TIRED.
I REALLI AM...

2007-11-13T23:21:00.000+08:00

She is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon’s ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She’s another two years older
And she’s three more steps behind

Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she’s going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that’s tucked away in your and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?

She is yearning
For shelter and affection
That she never found at home
She is searching
For a hero to ride in
To ride in and save the day
And in walks her prince charming
And he knows just what to say
Momentary lapse of reason
And she gives herself away

Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she’s going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that’s tucked away in your and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?

If judgment looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can’t see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her
If judgment looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can’t see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her

Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she’s going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that’s tucked away in your and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?

Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she’s going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that’s tucked away in your and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?

He is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction

it always seems to be this way.
verge of jumping
up and down

2007-11-12T00:16:00.001+08:00

I'm Back on the track

2007-11-12T00:16:00.000+08:00

I'm Back on the track